R.I.P.-------The Broken Heart

This piece of work made me post it here....Obviously i've nt written it...bt wanted it to be here.
This is for the broken hearted.
I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too. You don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them.
That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, are normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can't help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them. And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this.
And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you're to the point where you don't care who sees. Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you know it won't. And that’s the truth, it won’t.
And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this...

Today's Independence Day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is 16th Aug. now and our Independence Day is over !!....atleast for most of us---1 gazetted holiday is finished,1 anniversary of Indian Independence gone and may be just another day passed!!!

What else is associated with this day after 61 yrs of hard earned,blood clad freedom that our revolutionaries and leaders snatched from the imperialist Britain?? Well,yes,it's the celebrations in schools,streets,malls,flag hoisting,speeches,a few patriotic movies on every channel..........is any other thing left??

Have you ever thought,there was no independence day thing when our forefathers went their ways out for the freedom of their motherland,they never forgot that one goal--FREEDOM..........and now that we have this day 2 celebrate,we do not bother to let any other day of the whole year off for our nation,the needs of our people..

It has been very rightly and wisely said,"We value the happiness that we don't even have with us,and stop thinking about it when it's embracing us finally!!"

Can't we celebrate every single day as our independence day? Is it too much to do for a land where u grew up,learnt life,found happiness,achieved your goals and lived a whole life??This place has bestowed us with every little thing it had,and it's doing so for innumerable years!!! and will be doing so for many more innumerable years!!!

Being a Bhagat Singh,Mahatma Gandhi,Kiran Bedi,Abhinav Bindra......is not impossible,but we can do a lot for our nation even if we are not 1 of them...

Don't spit on roads,don't involve yourself in corruption,pay your taxes,follow traffic rules,and believe me,u would be giving your share of contribution in making our country a better place 2 live in.....

Every developed nation is developed because of it's citizens just as a home is what it's members make it!!

India has a population of over 1 billion which makes it the second most populous country after China.But China is far ahead than us,population is always seen as the greatest hindrance in the way of our nation's success and may be it is,but can't we convert it in our strength just as China did??

Although India occupies only 2.4% of the world's land area, it supports over 15% of the world's population. Only China has a larger population. Almost 40% of Indians are younger than 15 years of age.Just imagine what a powerhouse of youth we are carrying with us without realizing it!!

Just try and do little things on your part,this is our motherland,this is our home,wtever it is today,it is because of us and wtever it will be in future,it'll be because of us......

Show the world,we are a family,a happy and concerned family!!

************************************JAI ~~ HIND********************************

The most amazing day of my life

It was really the most amazing day of my life and the most unexpected too.Since,i am an engineering graduate now,and was a student then,i kept looking for campus and job fairs to get into a good job.I came to know about this joint campus going to be held in MIT,Moradabad by infosys on 23rd apr 2007.I was sure,i would go there.After all planning with my group to go there,i told my parents and they clearly refused!!!!!!
After a lot of rona dhona,i managed to convince them and i,with my friends Gaurav,Ritu,Vikrant and Shalini,started off the journey in a taxi that we'd hired.It was 12 in midnight exactly.The whole night was the best time that i've spent with my friends till date.We all were going just to get an experience about placements and more than that,for fun.After a full mast journey of 6 hrs,we reached the college at around 6 in the morning.We were sent to hostel for relaxing ourselves.Then ,at 7 o'clock,we went hunting for food....to find nothing at all even 15 kms from the college.Finally,we landed at a dhaba,n got the aalu ka paranthas....Then after much roaming,we reported in the college at around 9 am.
There was a mob in the college,i must say and to my utter surprise,everybody was busy studying,while all 5 of us were just laughing at those bookworms.Then written paper started around 11 am.It contained questions on aptitude,english.Very brainstorming for me,atleast.Two students were seated together for the exam and I sat with Ritu.Then,we got the first paper of aptitude.Very tough.I was doing that when we were given another paper of english.My english paper fell down and dat too,beneath Ritu's feet.As i bent down to take my paper,the invigilator shouted all of a sudden,"Excuse me",came very angrily towards me,said,"Stand up".I was extremely scared.He took away my papers and put them on the first bench and made me sit there.Thank God,he didn't made me leave the exam.After 5 hrs of wait,the result was announced and luckily,only i made it to the interview from amongst all my batchmates including my friends.
I had not come with any preparation for interview,even i was dressed very casually and not formally,that's needed for any interview.To make the things worse,i was the first to be called for the interview.I was crying just before the interview and all my friends stayed there supporting and encouraging me.Then after another wait of 4 hrs,the final result was declared and mine was the first.The HR congratulated me personally because he came to know that i was the only candidate to be selected from my college.My friends started shouting on hearing the result.Ritu hugged me and she was crying!!! That touched my heart when she said,"U did it".I'll never forget that moment.
I started receiving phone calls congratulating me for it and thanks to my friend Gaurav,who had spread the news across the world....huh..We were very tired till the result came out but after that our journey back to home became so memorable because we all were tremendously happy.
I know for sure,It was the good wishes of my friends and my family which helped me get through finally.On our way back,we stopped at a dhaba and it was real 5 star treat.....really....I can never forget that day ever in my life and i don't even want to.....Such days are rare in one's life and are meant to be cherished forever.That day certainly marked a new start for me.The best part of all this was the interview which i'll be sharing with all of you soon......which made me enter the family of infoscions........

Thanks to the feeling called....................Humanity

I was very small when this incident happened with me and although,I don't remember much things of my childhood but this incident is like carved deep in my mind.I was 6 yrs. old then and it was the time when my summer vacations were going on.My late maternal grandma lived hardly 2 kilometers from my home.Like every child, I went to stay there during that time.My mausi(s) had also come up there and so did my other cousins.It was not that I was staying over there for the first time,infact I spent most of my time with my nani daily.But even then,I felt a lot uncomfortable that day living there without my parents who had dropped me there.They left for my mama's place which was half km away from my nani's home but i didn't know that my parents would be visiting my newly wed mama after leaving me at nani's home.After about 30 min. or so since they left,I suddenly felt an urge to meet ma papa.And I ran away without knowing my own address.Everyone adult in nani's home ran to stop me.But I was ferocious then,running straight.I had thought that I would get my parents in the way of my home but they had gone to mama's house & i didn't know that.After running madly to about 1 km,I stopped because I was not able to recall which way to go to reach my home.It was 9:30 at night and it was a lone area with trucks' fleet covering all the roads.I was damn scared with the scene.I started crying not finding any other option.After 10 min. or so,a young sardar came up to me and lifted me up in his hands.I was much more frightened.He asked me the reason of crying.I told him,"mummy ke paas jana hai",in a shaky voice.He asked me my address then but I also didn't know that.I said,"mujhe yaad nahi hai".Then he pointed towards his truck and told me,"aaj raat mujhe calcutta jana hai,ya to rasta bata do varna calcutta le chalunga".I just started feeling short of heart beats listening this.I immediately started telling him the way to go in the hope that somehow,i'll reach my place.Moving through right & wrong turns for about ! hr.,I reached my home.My neighbour thanked him & he left after confirming with me that I was at the right place.
My parents were not home at that time.Then the neighbour called them up to tell that I had reached home safely.My parents & other relatives were searching for me till then.The person who made me go to my family has always been thought as an angel for me & my family as well.Such people are rare to be found today who are ready to take pains without any selfishness.He showed that he was a"human".Today,the people around are no less than animals who only wait for an opportunity to take undue advantage of anyone & everyone.Though this seems an ordinary incident but the result of it can't be seen today.I'll always be thankful to him for giving me the chance of living with my family again.

.............And I lost my friend

I had this friend of mine,whom not only i loved,but our whole batch in school cherished.She was adorable,sweet,intelligent & always wore that infectious smile on her lips which kept everybody around her happy.She was the topper of both 10th & 12th std. in our batch.Her name truly described her qualities.She was Mehak Luthra,an integral part of the group of we,4 friends,myself,Ayush Suppu & Mehak.....We used to gather for parties,for studies,for meeting each other after we all left for our colleges.Each time,we 4 were free,we used to meet at Suppu's or my place.It was so fun.She was different than others.She lived with her single parent,her mother & two of her brothers lived with her father.She had a very rich background but she did never complain her mother for letting her live without any facilities.She had a desire to fulfil every dream of her mother because she knew that her mother was living with a heavy heart.Her mother separated with her father because of his infidelity.This phase of life was unbearable & un recoverable as well.She wanted to be an engineer cracking the IIT-JEE but her mother,who herself was a dentist,wanted her to become a dentist too.She,therefore,opted for her mother's choice & took admission in a medical college in Meerut,Subharti.She was among good students there also.We met a several times after her admission there.It was my 2nd year of B.Tech i.e 2005.I had a sessional next day.My mother called me up & told me that an accident occured in Meerut & Mehak was missing since then.I started calling her no. but of no consequence.I tried other friend's no.s but I didn't get to talk to any of them.Then I got Ayush's call who was the closest to Mehak of all of us.I asked him about any news regarding Mehak.He said,"Vo mil gayi".And as i listened that,i started sighing with relief and asked him,"kya hua tha,thik hai ab vo?".I got the answer,"dead body mili hai".There was just silence following this.After a pause,he told that she & aunty(her mother) went to Victoria Park where there was a consumer goods' fair.She was 95% burnt & was identified by her clothing and accessories.Aunty was 65% burnt & was referred to Safdarjung Hospital,New Delhi.That was the day calling for Mehak's departure from this world.Otherwise she wouldn't have gone there on that fateful evening.Ayush & Mehak had a plan of meeting in Meerut itself.But suddenly,her father called her saying,he would come ther to meet her.She refused Ayush to come that day & went with her mother to Victoria Park for a timepass because her father again called her up to cancel the plan.Again,a lady who was outside the park's entrance on that day,told that both Mehak & aunty had come out of the park before the fire broke out.But then Mehak,who was very fond of cosmetics,went in again to buy some of them,leaving aunty outside.And that was the instant,that took away our beloved Mehak from us.After this,aunty also got inside to look for Mehak,but fainted & burnt herself to 65%.Ayush was dumb for the next few days.He called me the next day of this incident & said,"yaar pura din ho gaya hai,par Mehak ka koi fone nai aaya aaj,koi sms bhi nai mila.Vo to roj phone karti thi.Uska no. bhi nahi mil raha hai.pata nahi kya hua hai?" I was scared to listen these things from Ayush .After exactly a week,aunty also succumbed to injuries.We did not even get to see her in the last ceremonies.She was a gem of a person,an epitome of all good qualities.Her birthday fell on 8th nov. & we still miss her a lot.She has left a vaccuum in our lives which nobody can fill up by any means because God creates angels rarely just to remind us of His power.She was a person,who,despite being sad for herself & her mother,made others laugh.We love her a lot.And we can never forget her charming smile.Her physical appearence amongst us is something we desire,but her spiritual presence is something,we have.Love you Mehak.........

Somebody.........In the journey of life

When i was a school student,i used to write a lot of things,childish though.I love my friends a lot & most of them are with me since a long time(my school friends).I wrote this stuff considering them all(Suppu,Jitin,Shuchita,Prashant) when i was about 14 or so.This goes as written below:-)
Life is all about a journey,
accompanied by triumphs & trifels.
People meet & separate throughout,
a lasting impression does round about.
Routes of a journey are set though,
but the case with life is just not so.
Neither the paths are predecided,
nor they can ever be presided.
A constant help,care in this journey by someone,
makes us paas happily,merrily this one.
Love is the weakness of a human,
strangely,with it,he feels what he wants to do,he can.
Life is the toughest,longest,an ordeal kind journey for everybody,
someone with us to share our happiness,sorrows is a buddy.
There is someone,somewhere for every human being ,
who is happier than ever for you are the happiest being.
There is someone,somewhere for every person in the crowd,
who lends his shoulders to support you,to calm you down.
Does everybody do this??
Does everybody make you feel him as a bliss?
That is only "Somebody".
God has created it that way,
That many people can make you feel happy & gay.
But,that is only somebody who makes you feel "Special",
who is ready to sacrifice any thing to take you out of a hassel.
That somebody makes you feel special as he himself is special,
that somebody believes you,makes you form & bring life to your dreams' castle.
That somebody is very difficult to find,
that somebody touches your heart,soul & mind.
That somebody is he who loves you more than anyone else in the world.
That somebody is he who is sent by God for you are also a part of this world.
That somebody is he who wipes your tears when you cry,
That somebody is he who makes you think big & try.
That somebody is he who wishes to God first of all for you,the dearest,
That somebody is he whom being miles apart,you feel the nearest.
That somebody is he who shows you the right path.
That somebody is he whose relationship maintains the same or increases the in-between warmth.
That somebody is he who doesn't love you by your stature but helps you make one apart.
That somebody is he who doesn't bring for you moon & stars,but makes you feel & be a star.
Realize somebody's existence,
Lovable,caring,understanding,trustworthy,loyal,admirable,making sense.
That somebody is the most precious gift,heaven has sent for you,
That somebody is the brightest star you have chosen for yourself.
That somebody is above all worldly things,
That somebody is a "FRIEND".

A WALK TO REMEMBER..............

Yes,it was certainly a walk to remember.This is one of the most amazing movies i've ever watched.everytime i watch it,it has a hangover lasting a few days.I don't really enjoy hollywood flicks because they are just a terrible showcase of weird fantasies.But this movie has the feelings which touch one's heart so deep.It has Shane West & Mandy Moore in the main lead as Landon & Jamie,respectively.It depicts that true love never dies.Landon is a brat,playing in a gang of some other brats.Jamie is a very simple girl,a priest's daughter.Both study in the same school.Despite of ignoring Jamie over & over again,Landon falls in love with her.Their love is shown by this beautiful song that Jamie sings unknowingly and makes Landonfall in love with her:
There's a song that's inside of my soul'
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again.
I'm awake in the infinite cold,
But you sing to me over and over and over .
So I lay my head back down ,
and I lift my hands and pray to be only yours,
I pray to be only yours.
I know now you're my only hope.
Sing to me the song of the stars,
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again.
When it feels like my dreams are so far,
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.
I give you my destiny,
I'm giving you all of me,
I want your symphony,
Singing in all that I am,
At the top of my lungs ,
I'm giving it back.
One day he comes to know that she's been suffering with leukaemia(blood cancer).On knowing this,he breaks down obviously.He asks Jamie,"are you scared .......to death?".Jamie answers,"I am scared of not being with you."Landon assures her saying,"this is not going to happen..... I'll be there with you." He,then fulfils whatever Jamie desires; help her enjoy her life,marries her,takes admission in a medical college as Jamie wanted so.In other words,he lives for Jamie till her end & after that too.Jamie tells Landon,"you are my angel."Jamie,who always wanted to see a miracle in her life,dies an unfortunate death.Landon feels sorry for not being able to create a miracle in Jamie's life but her father tells Landon,"She did see her miracle .......it was you." What Landon feels after her death is so true,"Love is like the wind......i can't see it,but i can feel it." This masterpiece sends the message:
Love is always patient & kind.
It is never jealous.
Love is never boastful or concieted.
It is never rude or selfish.
It does not take offence & it's not resentful.
Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins,
but delights in the truth.
It is always ready to excuse,to trust,to hope,
and to endure whatever comes.
As for Jamie,God has a bigger plan for everybody than what one has for himself.Like because Jamie was sick,God sent Landon to her,the miracle in her life.......Love changed Landon's life and has the power to change anything.......for better.
I wrote about it because i loved the movie like anything and i wish everyone to watch it atleast once.This can make you believe in love.................